The walls you've built
They bend, not break
I'm not the same
And the time I have
It's yours to take
For what it's worth you're worth it all

My arms are always open, my dear, I'm here..
Your hand will always fit in mine, dear

You will never be alone
As long as I am alive
You will never be alone
I'll stand the test of time

For heaven's sake
I cannot fake
I'll always care
I fall in, fall out
Mess up, break down
But keep a smile
Cause I'm still here

Please believe in me
Cause I don't believe in anyone but you
I'll give you something to hold on to

You will never be alone
As long as I am alive
You will never be alone
I'll stand the test of time

And I will forever stand so strong for you
I'm yours, as long as I am alive

You will never be alone
As long as I am alive
You will never be alone
I'll stand the test of time

And I will forever stand so strong for you
I'm yours as long as I am alive...

Watching the one you love, love someone else, is allways hard...

Blue Bird..

We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.

If you stand for NOTHING, you will fall for ANYTHING...

argh, im tired of feeling sick all the time, and everything i do makes me feel REALLY sick at times, i cant live this way, its actually so stressful feeling sick 99% of the time, and no im not just being dramatic coz i do feel sick all the time, my brain is a messed up piece of shit...why do i have 2! anxieties that are recking my life, even when i sleep...most people go through 3 parts of their brain when their anxious or have emotions, and 1 of them is the calming part, my phycologist said that my calming part doesn't connect with the other 2 parts and thats why i find it hard to calm down and most likely why my anxieties are such a problem, also with most people, anxieties just make them feel sick and make them feel like they are going to throw up but never do, but with me it goes to the next level and i throw up...well theres my life story..maybe just maybe sometime in the future i mite post what my anxieties are about, if i feel like it..

...dont change what you really want, for what you want at the moment...

We All Get Better In Time...

You Are My Angel..

You Make Me Feel Like...

My Life Be Like..

Under The Mistletoe

My Hearts a Stereo

The only thing i want for christmas is you, but theres most likely going to be one sad little boy come christmas day

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas wish
The mistletoe is where, i'll be waiting meet me there

I know someone out there knows what i'm saying
Baby you're a girl who's wishing just like me
There is one, and you know who you are
My gift to you is all my heart
Make my holiday, and hear me when I say

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas wish
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

In the morning I know everybody's rushing
To see what's underneath the christmas tree
Know what I mean, cuz I don't find it there
And I need the mistletoe is where
You make my holidays, so hear me when I say

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas wish
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

Only you can make this...a merry merry christmas

There is one, and you know who you are
My gift to you is all my heart
Make my holiday, and hear me when I say

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas wish
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

All I ever wanted was you, this christmas
Yeah yeah yeah
I need you baby

You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas wish
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, kiss me there

I'll be waiting, kiss me there...

please...i dont want to here about you liking other guys, it breaks my heart into more pieces, the fact that i will be replaced soon...if not already...

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My Drawings of Roses :P

Blogs

blogs are about posting how you feel and there not aimed at anyone, i havnt even put a nick name or name or anything, so i really havnt done anything wrong, just because it seems so much like its aimed at you, is there anywhere where it says it about you, the answer is no, its my blog you dont have to read it, your the one who clicks on it, if you dont like it dont look at it fair enough, its my life, my rules, dont like my rules then bugger off

my song to you...

Numb - Linken Park


I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there. 

(u)

i just cant believe you, you dont love me, you never did...i went out of my way so much for you, and i did so much for you...i trully DID love you , but you just pushed me away heaps and i ended up losing my love for you, you put me through so much but i stuck by you every minuet, i gave you 6 chances! how many more time do you want to rip my heart apart?...i made you promise that we could still be bestfriends if we broke up...but you dont want to...you think youve been hurt well open your eyes and look at what you did to me, when a guy crys over a girl, you know he truly loves her... i kept fighting for you, without giving up...but there gets to a point where every fighter has to retire, i was fighting a losing battle...im sorry for not being good enough for you.. even at times when you were bitchy i thought you were the most amazing girl in the world..and i thought that even when you were tearing me apart. you hurt me like no one before, and just because i dont love you anymore, doesnt mean i dont think your amazing, and dont care about you...One day, i hope you realise that "he really did love me" and that "he was good to me" , im sorry but i cant do much more then my best.

.

Life is complicated and i dont know much...but i know you WILL always have a part in my heart...

.

~I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved.. ~

ily

ILY doesnt have any feeling in it, you may as well not say it because it means nothing well to me anyway, thats why when i say I love you, i mean it...

Words of wisdom #5

Weird is different, and everybody's different, so different is normal

Words of wisdom #4

you should never be dying for something, you should be living for it.

Words of wisdom #3

A smile is not as much the result of being happy, as it is the cause.

Facts about Men: (obviously written by a woman) :P

1. Men like to barbecue. Men will cook if danger is involved.
2. Men who have pierced ears are better prepared for marriage. They've experienced pain and bought jewelry.
3. Marrying a divorced man is ecologically responsible. In a world where there are more women than men, it pays to recycle.
4. Men are very confident people. My husband is so confident that when he watches sports on television, he thinks that if he concentrates he can help his team. If the team is in trouble, he coaches the players from our living room, and if they're really in trouble, I have to get off the phone in case they call him.
5. Men like phones with lots of buttons. It makes them feel important.
6. Men love to be the first to read the newspaper in the morning. Not being the first is upsetting to their psyches.
7. All men are afraid of eyelash curlers. I sleep with one under my pillow instead of a gun.
8. A good place to meet a man is at the dry cleaner. These men usually have jobs and bathe.
9. All men hate to hear "We need to talk about our relationship." These seven words strike fear in the heart of even General Schwartzkopf.
10. Men are sensitive in strange ways. If a man has built a fire and the last log does not burn, he will take it personally.
11. Men have an easier time buying bathing suits. Women have two types: depressing and more depressing. Men have two types: nerdy and not nerdy.
12. Men have higher body temperatures than women. If your heating goes out in winter, I recommend sleeping next to a man. Men are like portable heaters that snore.
13. Women take clothing much more seriously than men. I've never seen a man walk into a party and say "Oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed; get me out of here. There's another man wearing a black tuxedo."
14. Most men hate to shop. That's why the men's department is usually on the first floor of a department store, two inches from the door.
15. If a man prepares dinner for you and the salad contains three or more types of lettuce, he is serious.
16. If you're dating a man who you think might be "Mr. Right," if he a) got older, b) got a new job, or c) visited a psychiatrist, you are in for a nasty surprise. The cocoon-to-butterfly theory only works on cocoons and butterflies.
17. No man is charming all of the time. Even Cary Grant is on record saying he wished he could be Cary Grant.
18. When four or more men get together, they talk about sports.
19. When four or more women get together, they talk about men.
20. Men are less sentimental than women. No man has ever seen the movie THE WAY WE WERE twice, voluntarily.
21. Most women are introspective: "Am I in love? Am I emotionally and creatively fulfilled?" Most men are outrospective: "Did my team win? How's my car?"
22. If a man says, "I'll call you," and he doesn't, he didn't forget... he didn't lose your number... he didn't die. He just didn't want to call you.
23. Men hate to lose. I once beat my husband at tennis. I asked him, "Are we going to have sex again?" He said, "Yes, but not with each other."
24. Getting rid of a man without hurting his masculinity is a problem. "Get out" and "I never want to see you again" might sound like a challenge If you want to get rid of a man, I suggest saying, "I love you... I want to marry you... I want to have your children." Sometimes they leave skid marks.
25. Men are self-confident because they grow up identifying with super-heroes. Women have bad self-images because they grow up identifying with Barbie.
26. Male menopause is a lot more fun than female menopause. With female menopause you gain weight and get hot flashes. Male menopause - you get to date young girls and drive motorcycles.
27. Men forget everything; women remember everything. That's why men need instant replays in sports. They've already forgotten what happened.

Words of wisdom #2

Life is a struggle, and ultimate victory is only decided in its final chapter. Those who keep pressing onward toward a goal with tireless persistence win in the end.

Words of wisdom #1

it is senseless to blame others or your environment for your miseries. Change begins from the moment you muster the courage to act. when you change, the environment will change. The power to change the world is found no where but within our own life

68 facts about being a guy

Phone conversations last 30 seconds

You know useful stuff about tanks and airplanes

A 5 day vacation requires only one suitcase

Bathroom lines are 80% shorter

You can open all your own jars

Old friends don't give you crap if you've lost or gained weight

Dry cleaners and haircutters don't rob you blind

When clicking through the channels you don't have to stop on every shot of someone crying

You don't have to lug a bag of "necessary" items with you everywhere you go

You can go to the bathroom without a support group

Your last name stays put

You can leave a motel room bed unmade

You can kill your own food

The garage is all yours

You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness

You see the humor in "Terms of Endearment"

You never have to clean the toilet

You can be showered and ready in 10 minutes

Wedding plans take care of themselves

If someone forgets to invite you to something, they can still be your friend.

Your underwear cost $7.50 for a pack of 3

None of your co-workers have the power to make you cry

You don't have to shave below your neck

You don't have to curl up next to some big, hairy guy every night

If you are 34 and single, no one notices

Chocolate is just another snack

You can quietly enjoy a car ride from the passenger seat

Flowers fix everything

You never have to worry about other's feelings

Three pair of shoes are more than enough

You can say anything and not worry about what people think

Michael Bolton doesn't live in your universe

You can whip your shirt off on a hot day

Car mechanics tell you the truth

You don't give a flip if someone doesn't notice your new haircut

You can watch a game in silence for hours without your buddy thinking "he must be mad at me."

One mood, all the time

You can admire Clint Eastwood without having to starve yourself to look like him

Same work.......more pay

Gray hair and wrinkles add character

Wedding dress $2000, Tux rental 100 bucks

You don't care if someone is talking behind your back

You don't pass on the desert and then mooch off someone else's

If you retain water, it is in a canteen

The remote is yours and yours alone

You need not pretend you're "freshening up" when you go to the bathroom

If you don't call your buddy when you said you would he won't tell your friends you've changed

If another guy shows up at the party in the same outfit, you might become lifelong buddies.

The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected

You think the idea of punting that small, ankle-biting dog is funny

If something mechanical didn't work, you can bash it with a hammer and throw it across the room

New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet

You don't have to remember everyone's birthday and anniversary

Everything on your face stays its original color.

You don't have to clean your apartment if the meter reader is coming.

You can drop by to see a friend without having to bring a little gift.

Your pals can be trusted never to trap you with. "So, notice anything different?"

You are not expected to know the names of more than five colors.

You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.

You almost never have strap problems in public.

You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes.

The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades.

You don't have to shave below your neck.

Your belly usually hides your big hips.

One wallet and one pair of shoes, one color, all seasons.

You can "do" your nails with a pocketknife.

You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.

Christmas shopping can be accomplished for 25 relatives, on December 24th, in 45 minutes.